No one will listen to me God.
I have often thought that God was telling me I had something to say. But I kept saying, God, no one will listen to me. I have a bad past, they won't even care what I say. Yet I kept hearing, you have something to say for me. I said God, you know I was a drug addict, a alcoholic, I have been married a few times, to many, I have made bad choices and I am unemployed. Who's going to listen to me?
So this is a attempt to write what I feel God has and is telling me. Things I hear and read. Mostly from the Bible or books. I am rereading a great book right now by Max Lucado called God's story. I highly recommend it.
I am not a writer, so you may find grammatical errors and some times misspellings. I will use spell check to try to make sure they are correct. But understand this is not about correct grammar or spelling it's about the lessons or directions God is teaching me.
I am struggling right now with out a job. I have been searching for over a year. I feel like I am in a hole, a deep hole and can not get out. I can barely see sun light. So I am doing a lot of soul searching trying to find God's plan for me and if there is something He is trying to teach me. Any comments or suggestions are welcomed.
Let me say right off I am a believer, my faith is in Jesus Christ, my Hope in God. So the reason I am writing this, to say what God is doing in my life or telling me. I am highly blessed. I have a great loving family and the most precious grandson.
Recently I was reading Max's book and he told of a story about a state that offers their Drunk Drivers a new set of clothing - its bright orange. They also make them wear a vest with 4 inch letters on the back that say I am a Drunk Driver. While wearing the vest they have to pick up trash along the highway or three different days. Max was comparing that to the vest we wear everyday. We go to our closet and pull one or more out everyday. I was a bad Dad, I was a addict, Etc. What ever your is. We put it one and dress it up with a shirt of good behavior or good works. Never letting go of it. It holds us down and holds us back. Yet God paid the price for our sins, they are forgiven, God does not see them any more. We need to let go of our vest, the price has been paid and no good behavior or good works can do any thing to add to it. We only say it was not enough when we put it on and try to do some thing good. We should put on the vest of Gods Child, Chosen One, Royalty of the King. Wearing this vest we can do God's work. We can accomplish God's missions. So take off the old vest and put one God's vest.
That's all for now. More to come
